Butterflies and hurricanes

Oct, 18th

2011-10-18T18:25:00.000+08:00

I can never be good enough.
Good enough for my standards, good enough for myself
NEVER...
Am always letting myself down
Trying so hard only to ALWAYS FAIL at achieving my goals
Don't ask me why, even me myself don't know why I'm expecting this much from myself
I guess I just want to find something to be satisfied with and be happy about
Currently, being disappointed is like an everyday routine
With the added pressure from society, it's truly insane
For once I'd like to wake up feeling genuinely glad to actually be.. me

Sigh, I'm so tired of this...

13th, August

2011-09-13T01:06:00.006+08:00

Absolutely love simple dates @ random neighbourhood malls/areas, where we'd end up buying random stuff
I know it may not be much but.. hmm.. I don't know? It just makes me happppy
To put in simply: Feeling really blessed with Ys (^v^)♡

& Oh look It's been 4yr4months already, Xoxo

12th, August

2011-09-12T23:48:00.002+08:00

♥ Kisses on the forehead; You make me happy

Mon, 15th

2011-08-15T22:47:00.003+08:00

But..
I don't think I am
Well..
not anymore

(& I dreamt of the 3 of us last night.. just like the old times..)

20th, July

2011-07-20T18:53:00.004+08:00

Can't say much,
or should I say we're too worn out, too tired to make comments
Only you know whether its genuine or not...
After all the effort we placed for you which proved to be of no use
Honestly, kinda feel like we don't think we deserve this
Like a bad dream which is still going on
and that an answer good enough to make it stop would be too difficult to find
I don't even know whether it would ever stop hurting

1st, july

2011-07-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

Love watching you while you sleep..
So peaceful
Makes me smile
:)

June, 20th

2011-06-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

Would I lose myself? Lose the control i have of my life
If only you knew what I've been hiding
I don't know.
I'm afraid.

30th, May

2011-05-30T16:41:00.001+08:00

Have officially abandoned the blog as a whole, since its a personal blog anyway.
Or maybe i should say i finally have the time to actually use my laptop..

So.. I'm over and done with my attachment, which was not too bad
How can it bad when all you do whole day long is taste food/get free snacks & market products?
It changes my outlook on what jobs I would be looking at future,
opening up more areas where I can venture too.
But I'm still not sure. So much insecurities in my life/future.
Why must it be so tough to earn money and be succesful? WHY
Ok.... just random thoughts in my mind...

Anyway work last Sat was on of the best working days i've ever had
Hardly any customers which means a rather relexed day
And free surprised fruit salad from the chef brightened up my slow moving afternoon
Just spend most of the time staring at the beach and watching people move around
in their bikinis and swimsuits (Sadly didn't spot any hot bods, hah)
Headed over to FoodExpo after work
Been so long since I last went, always so fun last time.. I guess not anymore, since ppl change.. OK moving right along..
It's still the same, yummy food + saaaamples
Only thing was the pushy crowd which was kinda pissing?

After that, crashed over ys's for the champion's league finals.

It's my 2 weeks break, like Finally.
Able to get my well deserved rest after like what? 6, 7 months of the non-stop working/studying routine.
Been exteremely busy for the past few months.
The continuos routine I had never allows for any rest.
That explains why I never really had time to myself & Haven't had proper rest since... ever.

Heading to FoodExpo in awhile. Yes, again. (That's why I'm fat like that)
Can't wait!
Will be back soon, hopefully

16th, May

2011-05-16T22:14:00.000+08:00

Nothing beats this

15th, May

2011-05-15T20:47:00.001+08:00

Had one of the most expensive weekend I've ever had
Spent an insane amount within 2 days
But it was ALL worth it
How I wished the moment could last forever
Getting away from the stress of the world, its just as if the only thing that mattered is us
By far the best weekend treat ever

If I could, i'd spend every weekend like this

11th, May

2011-05-11T20:24:00.001+08:00

Don't understand why can't I be happy with who I am, with how I look, with what I have
I'm really honestly sick and tired of looking at my reflection and feeling like a piece of crap
Sick and tired of thinking of my bleak future
Sick and tired of being stuck in this shitty routine called "my life"
Why can't I feel good for once?
I'm really trying.... trying to be truly satisfied with myself
But why do I always feel like I'm failing?
Sometimes I really hope I could sit down and look at myself and tell myself "You're amazing"
Or wake up feeling happy with who I am and tell myself it's gonna be a great day

But I don't/can't..

29th, april

2011-05-02T19:48:00.003+08:00

I FREAKIN WANT THIS SOOOO BAD :(
urgh... this sucks.....

Any sponsors? Pretty plsss???

19th, April

2011-04-19T23:18:00.004+08:00

You know how it feels when you happen to read about other people's life and cant help but to end up feeling all disappointed and envious at the same time?
Sigh.
Looking at my life right now, it's just this big blurry mess, with no start... and definitely no end.
I really want to be able to achieve something, just so I can be proud of myself.
I've got no more confidence plus the fact that sometimes it feels like I keep on giving,
its running me dry.
Like I'm in the middle of the desert just sitting and waiting for that tiny raindrop which never comes.
Once in awhile, i too like to be at the receiving end instead.
Looking back and thinking about how much effort I put in and how tired I'm getting, it just makes me feel worse.
Like a big fat loser.
I honestly see no joy in my life anymore right now.
There's nothing to cry about yet there's also nothing to be happy about.

Feeling insecure. Feeling fat. Feeling ugly. Feeling like shit.
I want to just sleep and get lost in my dreams and wish that this time I don't have to ever wake up again

You ask me why I'm angry. I told you I'm not, but I was just kinda hoping for you to make me feel better...

12th, april

2011-04-12T23:41:00.005+08:00

Consequences of having strawberry icecream sundae straight after a bowl of sour-spicy noodle?
Garunteed Stomach ache
Not to mention, the addition of more chili to the already super spicy noodles

Bad move

4th, Mon

2011-04-04T23:36:00.007+08:00

Period

March, 18th

2011-03-18T23:21:00.002+08:00

Random photos from ages ago:
Most impromptu and shortest Vday dinner ever, thanks to something called Nights out
and
Random supper at cafe cartle after deciding to catch a midnight movie

March, 12th

2011-03-12T18:15:00.002+08:00

Great day with dinner being partially free (awesome)

Been too busy recently, I've no more time for the cyber world.
Well.. looks like it's time to update this space
But for now, off to crash @ Ys
I'd be right back

Feb, 16th

2011-02-16T12:22:00.002+08:00

Sick and tired.
Damn the lack of motivation
Next two weeks = pain
What makes it worse?
When you're trying so hard, but all you've ever achieve is nothing
Screw this shit, can't wait to bloody hell graduate,
TYVM

But for now? Coffee and hell loads of snacks so i wouldn't get bored to death

Jan, 29th

2011-01-29T23:55:00.003+08:00

Really yummy
On a xlb craze, just a week ago I went on a xlb feast with the girls
Thought i would be sickened by the sight of it for awhile. Surprisingly, no
(Wtf can literally hear lumps of fats talking to me now)

Dinner @ 313's Din Tai Fung seemed to be the only relatively pleasant thing that day,
everything else was rather lousy -
the weather, my umbrella... more or less our whole shopping trip
Nonetheless, I liked it (ironic much?)
☺

Jan, 22nd

2011-01-22T12:43:00.000+08:00

Esp hate it when weekends get cut short
Saturdays needs to last more than just a mere 24hours....

Jan, 21st

2011-01-21T22:08:00.002+08:00

Win♕

Start - end

Sudden cravings for certain food explains the Impromptu dinner plan
Chilli crabs with Mantou on a cold rainy Monday night (Yumz)

Jan, 7th

2011-01-07T18:15:00.003+08:00

To satisfy ys stomach which is like an endless-pit

Pathetic + didn't know me falling down was a joke to Ys (Mean)

NYE:
Lazy afternoon together with ys
Pool for a swim
Laptop & Television for company,
Prepared dinner,
Facebook account,
Failure to catch a glimpse of the nearby
fireworks,
Falling asleep by your side

Being able to cross over into the new year together again
makes me really glad, and I'm thankful for it,
your presence never fails to make simple evenings like these special.
Not to mention, you made the last week of 2010 pretty amazing.
Happy 2011 ♥

Jan, 6th

2011-01-06T14:42:00.001+08:00

So the Christmas period was all about food and chocolates.
Loads of chocolates, esp Ferrero rocher
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

So pretty, pity it was raining heavily

@Seishen's ↓

This cake topped with the Ice cream = Best

Jan, 5th

2011-01-05T15:30:00.000+08:00

Karine/Huibing's Bday

Super salty ginseng soup

Coconut pudding which doesn't even taste anywhere near coconut

Look at how many dessert she ordered

Nice; coincidentally every one's in all Black

Seriously this is Heaven in your mouth

Our failed bread pudding ☹

Buffet, 24hr swensens, surprise for Bean bday.
Can't believe all of us slept pass the stop we're suppose to alight at.
Hope you like the Eat-till-you-drop night.

Karine bday was mostly on Film. Couldn't find both cameras, which sucked.
Epic Fairprice trolley ride home & Panicking-squatting-crouching-rushing part.
Hope you love the dinner surprise eventhough 1/4 of it was fail.
(I hope this helps you remember, sigh)

Jan, 4th

2011-01-04T13:43:00.000+08:00

Gotta account for the lack of updates.
Because,
Past few weeks = Reality > Internet life
Which is a good thing, no?

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Yumz in the tumz

Sold out movie tix + Dessert buffet + Lots of walking
Like nights like these.

Dec 22nd

2010-12-22T22:12:00.001+08:00

Woah. the past few weeks has been crazy hectic, it just flew pass,
I don't even know when to begin. Updates soon.

I'm currently lazing on my bed with soft tunes from my laptop, staring blankly at this....

Sadly school work doesn't spare us for the next 3 weeks.
It feels like there's so many things to be done, which sucks.
I'm falling asleep any moment now........

Nov 29th,

2010-11-29T19:30:00.003+08:00

Caught Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows & visited Nex spontaneously last Friday.
Love spontaneous outings.
School is really being a pain in the ass, sigh

Nov, 24th

2010-11-24T19:52:00.005+08:00

Made a very random & impromptu trip down the night safari during Oct.

Tickets for....

"HALLOWEEN HORRORS @ the night safari"
(Ok I know Halloween was long over but still..)

The crowd was kinda massive,
but the queue managed to move at a relatively fast pace though

Finally made it onto the tram.
The last time i took the tram was like eons ago
No pics during the ride, I mean i do have.. but it's all dark and blurry

Yes, you, tree dude or whatever you're suppose to be, I will remember you.

Gross, I Hate dolls.

Joining the uber long snaking queue
which lasted about 1hr 45min or so, for..

The "Gui mansion" at the Zoo

Fave penguin :$
At this point I was dying of thirst.
Never craved for water so much before. Horrible.

The mansion looking all Spooky & Eerie

Nov, 21st

2010-11-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

Oct's - BBQ, stayover, swimming.
After swimming that day I had blocked ears for the next few weeks, which sucks.

Nov, 18th

2010-11-18T20:04:00.004+08:00

This is insane,
I dont know how i manage to keep running out of time to
complete my pile of projects/assignments,
I need to sit my ass down in front of the laptop and start work
Instead of making friends with Distraction and Procrastination
Omg what are you doing Cassandra?!
Start work now!

Nov, 18th

2010-11-18T19:29:00.002+08:00

I wonder if you even notice when I'm upset
Sometimes I wish I could just keep it in me
But the thing is that I'm getting so tired
I'm running out of strenght to hold on..
Maybe it's because I've kept so much in me,
To the point that it's breaking me apart every single night..
Maybe the reason why I'm hurting,
is that I'm caring way too much than I'm supposed to
~~Maybe it's not worth it. Pls wake up..~~

From Today onwards,
I'll never allow myself to get emotionally upset ever again
(Time to freaking wake up)

Nov, 3rd

2010-11-03T21:37:00.002+08:00

↑ From cycling a few weeks back

Finally had one of my topmost favourite dessert
Every bite's like happiness in my mouth
I think i can have it for every meal of the day & never get sick of it....
then you can say Hi to your little fat friend :(

Nov, 1st

2010-11-01T18:46:00.003+08:00

(Absoutely in love with jumping ♥)

One of the random lazy afternoon during Oct - Slippers/shorts/messy hair

Oct, 25th

2010-10-25T17:33:00.004+08:00

You really want to know how you're making me feel?
Honestly, i feel like this →
And it soooo does not help when i'm already drowning
by the amount of projects & assignment I have.

urgh (roll eyes) Bye.

Oct, 20th

2010-10-20T20:21:00.001+08:00

(Snippets of Bday pics)

Bday with the girls
↓

Looking tired with my awesome penguin cupcakes

.................................................................................

Bday treat from big sis
↓

Those stairs almost killed my poor legs. Literally.
Felt like i was climbing mount everest.. yes i know.. i'm just weak.

Woah, finally have the time to post those up
School has been amazing, with only 9am to 1030am lessons everyday
Not even 2 hours - GREAT.
But sadly.. good things does not last forever

Oct, 19th

2010-10-19T16:21:00.005+08:00

Felt like that many times / Tend to believe it's true

(Hi you, thanks for all the empty promises.
Thanks for filling me up with anger/disappointment/sadness...
Yes I really love feeling like that
Next time i'd be mentally prepared for this type of shit i promise. Wtf)

Oct, 18th

2010-10-18T23:27:00.001+08:00

So............
the new semester has officially began
What I dread most?
Exams/tests/reports/assignments/proj (basically everything?)
The thought of it is already painful

Hols been pretty much awesome, just the money part is a pain in the ass
My wallet size has decreased at amazing speed,
with transport eating up a huge portion of it.

Also not to mention that I'm temporarily deaf on my left ear,
it's currently blocked for a week now
and I can't hear stuff clearly. Imagine how annoying it is.

Last weekend was really goood, I don't mind reliving it over again.

Anyhoo, Church yesterday & over to ys's at noon.
Satisfied someone laziness by grabbing an MC at the nearby Hospital.
And now, come to think of it, should have totally grab one for school too right? Hell.
Still, Love Sundays like this

Now I'm wide awake cos' of the 4 plus hour of nap time I had when i got back from school.
Shit, morning lessons tomorrow
Bye!

(Yes, randomly felt like blogging proper. Not to mention the 500+ pictures just sitting & rotting in my folders)

Oct, 12th

2010-10-13T00:57:00.005+08:00

(p.s. Randoms)

(Favourite)

Oct, 1st

2010-10-01T02:38:00.006+08:00

(Ooohhh pretttty, lov'it!)

Super duper filling bday dinner treat from ys (had to skip dessert)
Impromptu stayover
Awesome time with the girls (-5ºC is no joke, it can make your fingers/toes/nose ultra numb &
make your nose runny with you not even realising it. Hardcore)
Bday cake with the family
Thankyou. I feel old now.........
Passing out parade
Ys being lovely enough to offer to prepare dinner for us
Night swimming/chilling at the pool
Dinner & chilling by s'pore river

Pictures seriously soon; it's literally pilling up in my laptop

Sept, 26th

2010-09-26T23:57:00.004+08:00

Today = Birthday

(Seem to feel like every other day though)

Sept, 15th

2010-09-15T23:46:00.001+08:00

" If you had to wait for someone you love,
Would you?
Even if it means waiting forever? "

Sept, 14th

2010-09-14T23:47:00.007+08:00

Thurs : (failed) Surprise belated bday cake
Fri : Literally combed whole of Amk just for dinner. Resident evil 3d.
Sat : ☺, tibits, icecream & soccer matches
Sun : Skipped church under the influence of sister & bed

With you around, I wish weekdays would never exist

Sept, 9th

2010-09-09T15:27:00.000+08:00

Ok, I admit I didn't mug that hard. But at least I did try my best.
Amazing how I managed to pull through
Must be the coffee & chocolates that kept me up throughout the night.
Now that I'm over and done with the examinations,
it feels like a big rock has been lifted off my shoulders.
Time to sleep for 12hours without a care in the world...

4th, sat

2010-09-04T08:54:00.002+08:00

I keep trying but nothing is working out
I know for sure my gpa's gonna dive down,
all the way down into the deep blue sea
The amount of theory is screwing with me.
Why can't all this be project based?
It's a lovely Saturday, but I'm determined to stay home
to at least get some studying done. Procrastination can suck it.
3 more shit ass paper; but you know what?
it doesn't make a difference, badly tortured by the first 3 alr

Hi world, enjoy the rest of your saturday!

2nd, thurs

2010-09-03T08:49:00.004+08:00

Happy birthday
I hope you're doing fine

29th, sun

2010-08-29T20:23:00.002+08:00

Haven't been studying much, so I guess I'm screwed for the papers. Sigh, not to mention, the next 2 weeks is gonna be painfully long. Hope it doesn't plunge me into depression. Time pass quickly pls?

Mon, 9th

2010-08-10T14:27:00.002+08:00

Prata for lunch at serangoon gardens after church.
Dinner/sleepover at ys place.
Pizzahut delivery & Army daze for national day.
How did you spend your national day?

Sat, 31st

2010-08-01T11:49:00.002+08:00

Who knew a phone call could make a girl this happy

(spent the entire day working on projects, i guess tomorrow's gonna be the same)

30th, Fri

2010-07-31T06:29:00.003+08:00

Ok, so this space is officially dead?
Just had this sudden urge to type/blog, so bear with me

My life is pretty much just about the same
I hope it stays the same way though. Really do.
Time is either passing too damn slow, or too freakin fast.

Some events I amazingly remember: Steamboat with the girls,
worldcup finals at bean's place, cooking of humongous omelet during class (which was delicious), Dinner at Town plus ghost stories for dessert, Purchasing of a new Ipod (finally), Shopping at Town before Dad's birthday dinner, Dinner at Ys's grandma's, Skipping of lessons more frequently, Sentosa (like so freaking long ago)... and the list ends here

Updating of random pictures of the randomly mentioned events above
would happen in later posts. After I deal with the problems my laptop is facing.

Crashed over at Ys's aft sch, late night supper & stayed for the night.
Got up early for ys's enlistment.
Gloomy morning, a very filling breakfast, enlistment.
Headed back to pick up my laptop and headed home all zoned out.
Now I'm face with a pile of projects/ppt slides and shit to be done.

I'd rather sleep.. Gdnight

26th, Mon

2010-07-27T11:36:00.001+08:00

Bloody Virus, don't you dare crash my laptop,
Thanks for deciding to screw with it when there's
projects and shit due on the one and only week left of school.
Thanks a lot ok.
Yes, it came from school, that's why my school sucks like this.

Wed, 14th

2010-07-14T06:47:00.000+08:00

Woke up, a call from Cheesiang and we ended up skipping school.
Nice.
I'm too caught up with life right now,
too caught up that i can't really be bothered abt the internet world.
Updates soon, ♥

4th, july

2010-07-05T07:05:00.000+08:00

Feeling like a fat loser
Have to stop stuffing myself with pizza & burgers

Sat, 3rd

2010-07-03T07:35:00.000+08:00

What if you feel that something is going wrong
yet the only person you can tell is yourself?
Sigh

(or Is it just the rainy day that's making me lose my mind?)

23rd, wed

2010-06-23T08:24:00.000+08:00

Fully utilised my 2 weeks break by slacking my ass off. Great.
Got tons of things to do, and now everything's screwed up cos' of procrastination
I hate you last minute work. Plus, Marketing suck so bad

(p.s. Some guys are just too freaking sweet, seriously. Makes me cringe, in a gd & bad way i guess?)

Tues, 19th

2010-06-20T13:38:00.000+08:00

WOAH, after too long I've decided to not be lazy & randomly upload pictures
(Looking like crap cause of the weather; the heat was unbearable)

P.s. I really can't be bothered about CommonTests right now

Thurs, 17th

2010-06-17T13:20:00.000+08:00

THIS IS SO NOT MY DAY
the feeling you get when you don't feel like getting back up, not anymore

Wed, 16th

2010-06-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

Worldcup with bestfriends, plus great weather
=
Awesome night with loads of shouting, swearing & laughing
So much for Spain huh

Sat, 12th

2010-06-12T19:06:00.000+08:00

Suckas dark circles/eye bags, are becoming a tad bit too damn obvious
What the hell man?

P.s. I've been thinking a lot lately. A little too much
I don't know what's going on (sigh)

8th, tues

2010-06-08T13:21:00.000+08:00

Like, when you know you can't, but you want to

(Oh look, I've got no school again, cheers. Really no time for blogging, plus too many pictures i've yet to upload)

Thurs, 27th

2010-05-27T11:10:00.000+08:00

So i had a week's break from school last week
Sch has been going well, considering the fact that they seem to
be giving us a whole lot of breaks, and they cancel classes very
randomly/frequently now. Ok, it still sucks with all the work and shit
Yes i've got No school again today,
which means a 4 day weekend for me
GREAT

Sun, 23rd

2010-05-24T13:13:00.000+08:00

Laying my head on your chest
Listening to the rhythm of your heartbeat
And the way our eyes meet..
Completes it all

Thurs, 13th

2010-05-15T18:13:00.000+08:00

-for ys's mum

Long walk by the river.
One of the nicest night spent
For a moment its as if we drifted away from the real world
'3 years time'

(Like, like, like, you know, like, like that, like he was like, like, you know.. hahaha)

Sun, 9th

2010-05-09T14:22:00.000+08:00

Friday was my first time trying fermented toufu.
Had dinner & dessert at Jalan kayu, and the night ended off with
us sitting at random spots and waving to random strangers
Cheap thrills which actually made us laughed the night away
So stupid, what were we thinking?
Saturday was sister's interview in the morning, cute statement tshirst in the afternoon and steamboat dinner at night

I just had mac for lunch and my most hated kfc for dinner,
Combo junkfood day, this sucks a whole lot, feel like a lump of fats now
I was about to start on my report by I got distracted
Sigh, I hate the feeling you get when you're missing someone so badly,
You'll never understand. Anyone get what I mean? K, never mind
Let's view some pictures of food shall we ..

.
.
.

Lastly, nothing can be more comforting then her hugs;

With all the love in the world,
Happy Mother's day to the most awesome mum in the world;
my mum ♥

Tues, 4th

2010-05-05T13:45:00.000+08:00

Never expect for more
Wished you could read my mind

Mon, 3rd

2010-05-03T14:54:00.000+08:00

Spoiler
Seems like there's a lack of cabs on a Sunday morning
It totally spoils the mood for the whole entire morning, thanks
On the other hand, spent one of the most awesome Sunday with sister
With a hell lot of walking & squeezing tru crowds (not to mention the blazing hot weather),
& having very awesome pasta for dinner,
at a random place tucked away in a cosy corner of Arab street
But..
Getting home and remembering I have a report to rush,
just.
spoils.
everything.

OK. Printer is pissing me off again. Gonna sleep it off now. Talking about printing, the lady at the printer shop, please control the volume of your voice, you have serious issues lady.. serious issues

Sat, 1st

2010-05-01T10:29:00.000+08:00

"Out of the world"

I'm so tired, I could just drop and fall asleep any minute of the day
Projects are slowly building up and it's starting to scare me
I just had durian in the afternoon, it was yumz,
how could people not like it?
It's the month of May already... wow

Sat, 25th

2010-04-26T11:05:00.000+08:00

Every one has their own problems
Every one has their own secrets
Not every one has someone to share them with

(Skipping lessons when it's only the first week. Not to mention school is extremely exhausting, don't understand why either. Oh well.. time is passing real quick. Is it a good thing or a bad thing? hmm. Random sidetrack - Am loving the wet weather)

20th, tues

2010-04-20T13:19:00.000+08:00

This is why I love my hamsters

Esp Fatball; the greediest and most lazy hammie on earth

(Sch's so tiring and dull, it makes skipping classes for a movie seem like a great idea. Badkidz.)

18th, Sun

2010-04-19T10:30:00.000+08:00

Ever since last year

My mouth/inner cheeks/gums starts swelling up

or ulcers start forming, the few days before the new semester/year starts

Really have no idea why,

It's like my mouth has allergic reactions to school.

OK maybe it's just a coincidence

But one thing I do know is that it never fails to hurt like crap

Nice

17th, Sat

2010-04-17T13:46:00.000+08:00

The holidays felt as though it lasted only for a week
(e.g.)
Suck at the bishibashi game, stuck at the national stadium cos' of the unexpected change of weather -don't ask, Stayover, Surprises, Worst sunday morning, Games at my place, Dinner and long walk home with ys, Town, Good food, and I can't remember events which happen more than a week ago.
Sidetrack: Awesome movie night (date night) yesterday, laugh like there's no end
Nothing like a good comedy movie on a friday night; lov'it

(35) 13th

2010-04-12T15:00:00.000+08:00

There's nothing I could say to you,

Nothing I could ever do,

To make you see,

what you mean to me

(Sigh maybe you don't feel the same way, but you mean a whole lot to me.. )

Wed, 7th

2010-04-08T07:33:00.000+08:00

It's like an endless fall filled with so many questions;
like taking a long, never ending walk in the dark,
you have no idea where you are or where you're heading.
If so, would you carry on or give up to seek answers?

Tues, 6th

2010-04-07T14:59:00.000+08:00

I checked my timetable
About a week later I'll be absorbed back into a loser portal
& not to mention, ending in the late evening is not fun at all
Screw you school, thanks for always being there to swallow my freedom
Why can't i have a 10 to 1 type of timetable?
So how? I don't want to start the new semester..
Ok wateva, this is stupid -.-

Thurs, 1st

2010-04-01T06:44:00.000+08:00

?!
Awesome or what
if only i was crazy enough, if only k
Don't judge me thank you. Peace
I'll be back soon, this past few weeks/days has been going great so far
+ Happy April's fools day
This reminds me, my sister tried to trick me by telling me a joke,
but her plan failed and I in-your-face her hahaha ok shit i better watch out now

Sun, 21st

2010-03-22T14:52:00.000+08:00

(Opps, I think I do. Don't you?)

Fri, 19th

2010-03-19T10:33:00.000+08:00

Today's plan to bake apple pie backfired
Cos' peeling apples decreased my energy lvl,
which resulted in me eating the apples that I've peeled while watching TV
The loser will try again next week.
Called delivery for pizza and it arrived 30min late, great
Pizza twice in a week, I can already feel the fats, what the hell

(Btw, Hi px, sorray i took like 4 hours to reply your text HAHA :s)

Wed, 17th

2010-03-17T10:58:00.000+08:00

(With the sister from a ages ago)

Hi world, my room's a war zone now,
the state it is in is terrible, but i seriously can't be arsed to tidy it (die)
And what have i been up to? Well, i guess, spending cash on useless stuff
which doesn't really benefit me in anyway possible, plus ++
finding fun on this tiny island, which sadly, is a rather impossible task
Today is a stay at home-self relax-clean fatball's cage day
Am gonna abruptly end here, HAH
Apeace out

Thurs, 11th

2010-03-11T15:52:00.000+08:00

Hi
I've got lactic acid build up in my neck and legs muscles,
which is why they're aching/bothering me
In need of more motivation to keep fit, like maybe...
a humongous bowl of mango pudding that can last me for months?
Mmmm, love a good bowl of mango pudding, totally makes my day
And now out of a sudden, my throat is killing me
Weak-ling

"I miss everything about you"

Tues, 9th

2010-03-10T11:09:00.000+08:00

"Behind every great love is a great story"

(No doubt, I'm hooked on drama & romance. Cos' it never fails to be awesome)

Sat, 6th

2010-03-06T10:39:00.000+08:00

Favourite

The weather is able to plunge my mood right down to the centre of the earth
It's super duper warm and it's pissing me off to a whole new level
Extremely in need of the swimming pool... right now

Plus the headache has been bugging me, it keeps coming and going,
and I can literally feel my head thumping inside
Will someone just please please make me feel better
PLEASE

4th, thurs

2010-03-05T12:04:00.000+08:00

YAAAAAY
It's the end of a painfully long and dull semester
and it looks like this space officially died from the lack of updates
while i was away revising and mugging and breaking down all at once.
All those short posts were through phone blogging, which sucked so bad
I'll be back to revive it soon enough
It's been awhile since i felt so relieved

11th, thurs

2010-02-12T04:32:00.000+08:00

No.

Really.

You're a loser.

Period.

6th, Sat

2010-02-07T09:46:00.000+08:00

Sat night was spent cooking and having dinner with ys
Nights like these will always be awesome
Not to mention, I surprisingly did the dishes

(Exam's in a few weeks time, but at this point, I can't even get my basics right
p.s. During the holidays, when I have plentiful time to waste, i'll update this space with more pictures)

29th, fri

2010-01-29T18:55:00.000+08:00

A chance to start my life over again, so i can make the right choices this time round
But then again, making the right choice doesn't garuntee happiness

24th, sun

2010-01-25T08:03:00.000+08:00

Sitting on the couch in front of the TV,
eating chocolate flavoured ice cream (with chocolate bits) straight from the tub,
with soft happy tunes coming from the laptop
Can Sunday get anymore happy/sinful than this?

I'm extremely extremely extremely inspired to start
painting my horrible dull looking study room. Especially with CNY coming up
If only school didn't have to be such an ass to suck so much of my free time up.
Talking about school I should..
stop ~~procrastinating~~, stop ~~sleeping~~, stop ~~lazing around~~, and start getting my work done
Oh.. my monotonous school life drains the fun out of everything

22nd, fri

2010-01-23T15:07:00.000+08:00

Its the little things that matters.
Its the very tiny details that affects me the most
Why don't you get it?

(P.s. I hope my little surprise managed to brighten up your day )

Sun, 17th

2010-01-18T11:15:00.000+08:00

(So Let's just fall in love again)

"And I wanna fall in love with you again"

Sat, 16th

2010-01-17T15:27:00.001+08:00

Dear Holidays,

Please come soon and
work your magic,
make me and everyone else happy again.

Regards,
Cassandra

There are reasons why i don't fancy going online and connecting with the internet world

Tues, 12th

2010-01-13T03:25:00.000+08:00

Focus. Need.. to.. focus
told myself i'll read up my notes but i end up doing stupid things like watching tv

Plus been skipping lessons more than i used too. This is so bad.
Side note - Screw all the fats, fats fats, fed up

Sun, 10th

2010-01-11T14:37:00.000+08:00

NO PLEASE, NOOOO...
WHY MUST TOMORROW BE MONDAY AGAIN

Wed, 6th

2010-01-07T10:12:00.000+08:00

(This is a random Picture-overload post, in total random order)

Bday BBQ surprise:

All the yummy leftover corn is All mine!

Spotlight's on the leftover chicken wings

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Last day of common test,
& filming for project's advertisement:

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Xmas 2009
& sending edith off at the airport:

(From karine's SLR)

Happy bday!

Bear - the bodygaurd C

OoooOOhhh.. do you have BALLS?

My face damn unhappy,
becuase everyone had happy chirstmas hats and all,
i'm the only extra who's like some fallen angle, so have to act like one evil girl.
Wha'ts more, i'm in all black

This log cake = heaven! But heard the other flavour was better.
Love icecream log cakes

(Below are from my camera)

Px's origami!

Bday girl had to guess the places we were at using these clues.
She took a avergage period of time
Like wth? if it was me, i think i would take the whole day to guess

You would never be able to guess what bec got me from her trip to china/hongkong
It's the most epic present/souvenir ever!
And she gave us each a hotpink match stick which she got from genting, epic or what?

Penguin cookie
Now i think everytime they think of me, the first thing that comes to their mind is penguin
Dammit

Hello edith, if you see this, we miss you! Have fun there k!?

Icccceeecreeeeeam!

Hanging new years wishes on chirstmas. Ok it was not exactly counted as wishes

Wed, 6th

2010-01-06T22:58:00.000+08:00

Dont understand what's the damn point of sending unconfirmed emails and text messages
Asshole of a school

Happy-New-Year!, Sun, 3rd

2010-01-03T06:55:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year

New year's eve:
Did something for a change by crashing over ys place, and we
stayed in to cross over to a new year. Only thing is that cable failed us at the
last minute. Were forced to watch mundane countdown parties on mediacorp.
Feel our pain.. But still, it's really an new year's eve to remember
Woke up the next day to a brand new year
Cabbed back to my place and headed to Jln Kayu for some prata for lunch,
And on the first day of the new year i finally had my hair trimmed, like finally

Sigh, it totally doesn't feel like a new year to me,
I'm suppose to complete my report. I had 2 friggin weeks to do it, but everything has been so distracting, and the 2 weeks were so packed that it passed extremely fast, dammit
Plus, the thought of school tomorrow totally suck balls..
What more have to go early for a damn project,
and i only have 1 boring-as-hell lesson which of all timings, have to be right smack in the middle of the day

Tues, 29

2009-12-29T14:28:00.000+08:00

I'm so used to being the extra. It's like, I'm already immune to the feeling. I'm so tired of catching myself every time i fall. I know i can't be certain that everything would be just fine.
If only i'm able to feel your presence all the time i feel this way

All alone on a cold night, with slow songs drowning me deeper into my own crazy thoughts,
I'm seriously determine to not allow my emotions to control me..

(Side note : I bought my dream hamster, friggin adorable like !@#$, update again)

Sun, 27

2009-12-27T05:11:00.000+08:00

Hope everyone had a great Xmas

(advance)X-mas stay over with the rest owned, best.
Gossiping never gets old with them around
Xmas eve was sweet, walking around aimlessly with ys
However dinner was disappointing, the amount of flour and oil used was a big turn off, only finished like half of the whole meal, not to mentioned we actually queued for like 15min for it

Why do I keep eating so much?
had steamboat with my parents on Xmas
and had steamboat again with ys family the next day,

and now i'm gonna have steamboat again for dinner!
Plus my mum keeps stocking up on snacks and potato chips.. I look like i have 2 fish balls in mouth when i smile

Anyway, I'm anticipating new years eve!
There is no purpose for this post, pictures coming soon

Random note - How can you assure someone that everything will be fine, if you know so vaguely about them?

Mon, 21st

2009-12-20T12:57:00.000+08:00

Advance xmas celeb is tmr, i can already smell the excitement
But kinda sad though, poor edith is going away, what worse it's so far away

Spent my Sat sleeping my morning/afternoon away,
was feeling extra lousy (pathetic + down + hated)
and the rest of the evening was at ys's,
pigging out with pizza and snacks, which took like forever to come
Keep pigging out; fats? damn you don't remind me....
Have been too caught up/occupied with preparing xmasy stuff for the past few days
On the contrary i haven't done any xmas shopping yet
(I'm your no. 1 true-hater of xmas crowds)

Bye, gonna make the use of the 2 weeks very wisely,
the thought of projects and reports really makes me want to cry
School work has never made me this depressed b4...

P.s.
New camera today made my day, but i'd love to get a nikon camera
For my xmas, anyone?

Sat, 19th

2009-12-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

Anyone who'd want to buy me the penguin jumper/dress for Christmas?
I'd love you to death
(hinting yssssss)

thurs, 17th

2009-12-17T12:24:00.000+08:00

Holidays is de best,
plus last day of common test totally rocked
Sentosa + epic lightnings/thunder + steamboat

Anyway lots to update,
but for now i just have to rant somewhere..
hate being so frail and weak, makes me feel so pathetic
At times just climbing a flight of stairs or like standing for a period of time
makes me feel so uncomfortable, till i have to sit b4 i black out
Seriously have to get some exercise done, and start eating healthy
Steamboat + buffet, like two days in a row, best..

Can't wait for the new year now :) this year sucked way too badly for me
(P.s. stop contacting me through my number, I'm officially uncontactable now, unless you ask me for my second number)

Sun, 6th

2009-12-07T00:33:00.000+08:00

Hi.
Common test is like a week away,
Still, instead of worrying, i'm looking forward to holidays.

Attending lectures is a pathetic routine,
cos' nothing gets into my brain. I really mean nothing.
I'm 100% lacking of motivation.
Need something or someone to motivated me.
Screw s'pore education system thanku

Plus for the past week i've been getting to school late.
I'm getting lazier by the day.
Gotta stop giving up and start pushing myself

But on the brighter side,
Only have 3 papers for CT and randomly had

steamboat for dinner with ys the other night. I like.

(P.s. cassandra, lose weight pls)

Not to forget, Happy brithday to Huibing beany(6th)!!!

I really have no idea why i update my blog for, just can't bear to delete this space. Opps :x

Nov, 30th

2009-12-01T06:57:00.000+08:00

Don't worry, I'm used to it
When you look into my eyes, i'm afraid you'll notice that i'm worn out inside